Dear diary,
I did what I needed to do and now I'm ready to do it. As I near the middle of my fourth year here at Hogwarts I've made my desicion. My parents want me to join the dark lord and I refuse. I told Stephanie that I love her and I wrote her a note in case I die. It's dangerous to put this type of stuff in writing, but as tonights the night...theres really no turning back. Tonight my parents are coming and I am going to get the dark mark, tonight...tonight I will refuse. Tonight I will try to kill him. The purification of pure bloods is wrong, my friends helped me to see that, and I can't go on living while others die at the hands of the dark lord. Also I can not bear to stand aside and become a follower, I AM NOT A FOLLOWER and I will do whatever it takes to stop this madness and stop this killing. I feel it is my sworn duty as I have always secretly had one aspiration, to hunt and stop all of those who oppress and hurt innocent people. Tonight I will refuse to step into the fire and recieve the dark mark, I will turn upon the dark lord and try to end his reign. I do not expect to suceed, and I do not except to come back, which is why I will send Stephanie a letter and hide this diary away where it will not come to harm anyone but me until the time is right that the truth be revealed. It's late now, and it is not lightly that I write this... if I turn back I shall never be able to live with myself. I have a chance and I must take it. For Jessie and for others that will perish because of...Lord Voldemort. This I promise.
Mark Williams.

It's been so long. I thought I had lost this book. Wow. Oh well...funny, I guess it was in my suit case. Well umm yeah... It's actually my 4th year at Hogwarts and a lot has changed. Last year I finally got up the nerve to ask Stephanie out and she said yes. I spent one month out of the summer holiday with her family, Jessie wasn't very happy about that...but theres not much I can do. She'll be starting school in no time and we wont have to worry about it. Stephanies great, she's still as gorgeous as I remember her in this book, although she's changed a lot. She's not so shy around me and I guess I've really opened up around her too. Me and my old friends are still really tight, always have been. But I have a feeling thats all going to change come the end of this year. I know I'm only a 4th year but I've come to realize that this might be my chance...and I've also come to realize that if I take this chance it's over. I can't survive it even if I suceed. I've only got one more year left.

Alright, that was a lot of fun. I think Steve and David and I found someone who is going to do really well in quidditch, Jason is awesome, only one problem. He isn't a Gryffindor! I guess I was a bit hasty since we weren't wearing robes, but Jasons a Slytherin. It's alright, I mean man he is awesome, but if Slytherin gets him on their team they are going to be unbeatable. We played three on one, two chasers for us, me and Steve and David played keeper, and Jason still got in two goals, and we only got in one in the time we played. It was a lot of fun though. Only bad thing about it was when Stephanie walked out, she was wearing her Ravenclaw robes and looked so amazing, and I started looking at her, OF COURSE that was when I had the quaffle and Jason swooped over and grabbed it, I bet she likes Jason now. My one chance possibly to impress her and I didn't take it...oh well. Tomorrow is after all Saturday so I might as well just chill, not much to do till Monday and thank goodness, I love my classes and I want to do really well, but gah I'm ready for a breather. Besides that I think I need to have a talk with Steve, he was talking about Stephanie today and I want him to know she's offlimits... Other then that I need to go, I still miss Jessie and everyone but I'm sure she is having a good time with that Kara girl back home, see you.
-Mark

Wow, life at the moment is so amazing, it's friday and I just finished class with Steve and David. I feel like things are going so smoothly, we just got a new teacher for Care of Magical Creatures, his name is Professor Corvis, it's all cool. He seems like he is a good guy and set us to work with birds called hernica's. I found a red one in the forest, it's actually a cross between a hermica and a pheonix. It's really pretty, but I don't know what I'm going to name it yet, maybe something to do with fire or bravery because it is Gryffindor colors or because it looks like a ray of hope, like fire that never stops burning. Anyway Steve, David, and me made a new friend today, his name is Jason. He is like the most athletic person I know, Steve and David seem to be changing the more I get to know them. David seems a lot like me, someone that I can relate too, and Steve has a new crush every few days, (although thankfully not on Stephanie because I havn't told them that I like her yet). I already finished all my homework except for transfiguration which looks like it's going to take forever, it's an essay on beatle to button transfiguration. I guess I'll have to finish it tomorrow because the guys and I are all going flying outside again, Jason wants to see how he will do against David and Steve and I are already to go for it too. I guess that means I need to go, so to anyone who may in future read this, later.
-Mark

Today was so amazing, I mean well...geez that girl is just amazing. Stephanie. She has the most amazing brown hair and it curles around her face perfectly, I just think I maybe am falling in love with her. She sat down infront of me for one of our herbology lessons and I got to watch the fact of her head and neck all class period, which means I got nothing done and I know I must have looked stupid in front of her, but I'll live. Steve, David, and I are as tight as ever I mean as first years it's pretty new to us all but between the three of us we usually have some type of a clue. I havn't been able to write Jessie lately, I told her I would write everyday, now I'm starting to see that thats impossible here, I do miss her. It's sad because I need to lie to her in my letters telling her about how terrible the Gryffindors are and how I hate muggle borns, but I'm glad I am keeping the lie up. If this plan works then it will be good for everyone, all I need to do is convince the dark lord that I am worthy when I get older, and how hard could that be? I mean he is scouting for followers, I'm sure I could make it, I'm strong enough to handle it...right? I don't know. I hope I am. I shouldn't be writing all of this down, if this book fell into the wrong hands it could cost me my life, and Jessies, even my friends, but I want to have something here for my sister incase I fail in my mission. If I can't become a follower and trick the dark lord...a skilled legilimens then I shall perish and I want Jessica to know that I was not really this type of person, and that this is wrong. I don't want to have to tell her that I lied to her, but at the same time she deserves the truth, just 7 or 8 more years of lieing to her and I shall be able to achieve my goal, the hardest part would have been establishing myself, but because my family has been in the buisness for generations already, even the fact that I am a Gryffindor was left unquestioned. I just don't know, I can't really trust people but at the same time I am so loyal to my friends, I just couldn't believe they were disquised like me, of course they probably think that about me...I must go, I'm sorry.
-Mark
Ps. Stephanie is so hott when she wears her blue long sleeve shirt and Jeans under her school robes, her hair falls down her chest and the light shines off of it at just the right angle.

Wow, this is so cool. It's my second day here at Hogwarts and there is so much to do. We had potions and got to blow up watermellons. It was so much fun, I really love it here. David was really good with his potion, he's meticulas like that but Steve wasn't and his exploaded all over the place! It was really really awesome!! After that we had lunch which was good, I can't get enough of the food here, way better then eating TV dinners at home. And then we had a care of magical creatures lesson. That was awesome, we each got to take care of a bird, and guess what I named mine? Jessica! Haha, I can't wait to write Jessie and tell her all about school, I really miss her but we are so busy its hard to get time to write. And you know what else? I think I might try out for quiddage, I probubly won't get it. But it will be fun to try to. Steve is dragging us down to the feild every night to get in some practice, and lucky me we hardly have any homework. I'm keeping up great. All we have to do tonight it write a diary about the bird and take care of it, I think I might take it outside with me to let it fly around! Alright, I'm going to go now, but guess what else? Stephanie said hi to me! She was talking with some of her friends who had to leave, she is in ravenclaw and she turned and smiled. She looks so pretty when she smiles, and she said, "Oh hey..." And I said, "Hi..." And she asked my name, and I was sorta a minute in answering and I told her and she smiled and told me her name...not that I didn't know it. And she said 'see you around' I certainly hope so. Alright...I really need to go. Mark.

WHOA! That was so awesome. David and me had never been on a broom before, but Steve was awesome. He taught us how and it was really fun. Dad had given me money when we went to get my books. I got a cleansweep 7. It's one of the best ones out now. I am really happy with it. I got on and Steve flew up into the air, I was able to follow pretty well, concidering. I think I might actually get good at this. Not as good as Steve but thats ok. David had a pretty hard time, but by the end of it he wasn't bad. I got to block a bunch of Steves balls but he got a lot past me. I hope he makes the team; he deserves it. On a lighter note, its late and I have other classes tomorrow. I'll see you then, I hope Jessie is ok. Mark.

Alright, classes are over for today and we got some homework. David and I are going to play some quiddage to help Steve who is trying out for the team, they have two open spots on the team because a chaser and a keeper graduated. He wants to try out for chaser, so I am blocking the hoops tonight. I'm a bit anxious because I havn't flown before, but I'm sure it will be fun. Charms was sorta cool. We read through the rules and she taught us a simple color changing spell. I think I'm picking it up really quickly. We were told to practice it tonight and I already did that, and I think I have it pretty much down. Alright, I'm sorry to interupt again, but it's just so busy and I never have time to sit down for a long period... Steves literally going to drag us out to the pitch. I need to go bye! Mark.

It's my first real day of school here, David and I had defence against the dark arts with Steve. It was really easy so far, all she had us do was write about ourselves. I wrote like 3 pages easily without saying anything weird, it was pretty cool. David is a good writer too, but Steve doesn't like it. I met a girl today, she seemed pretty nice. Her name is Stephanie. She has pretty brown curly hair and is a little bit plump, Steve keeps joking with me and telling me I have a crush. I think thats silly. It's lunch time now which is why I can write, but I need to go. David is throwing peas at me telling me we are going to be late for Charms which we have next... later. Mark.

Today was amazing!! I'm in my dormatory right now! It's awesome, way up in a tower with a great view!! Its totally amazing, seriously. I went up and sat on a stool while everyone looked at me then the hat started talking in my ear. It was saying things like, "Ahah! You may very well be the one!" And stuff like, "You parents want for you to be in Slytherin...but I can tell you are not someone who would do well there. You are smart, very much so. And loyal beyond imagine to your sister...but I see more. HAHA! I know where to put you!!" And then the hat yelled, "GRYFFINDOR!!" At the top of its voice and my jaw dropped, I sat down at the table with a ton of people, many of which I had made friends with on the train. I have a friend named Steve and one named David. I think they are my new best friends, they are first years too. And can you believe my luck? THEY ARE IN MY HOUSE!! This is sooo great. I just can't wait for everything to start tomorrow, I am going to get to go to lessons. Real magical lessons. This is awesome. It's late now though, and I have to go. Bye! Mark.

Hey again, I know I'm writing a lot. But I'm so excited, I just got here, we went across the lake and I met a bunch of really nice people on the train. It was great. We're in the great hall right now so my entry has to be really short...they have a hat that sings and stuff. The hat is going to decide which house I am in. I can't believe I'm here... oh shoot. I need to go! It's my turn! Mark.

Wow, this is amazing. I'm on the train right now on my way to Hogwarts. I just said good bye to Jessie and mom and dad. Jessie started crying when I left, but I'm sure she is going to be ok. She can handle herself. We spoke breifly before I left, she didn't want me to go. "Marky! Please stay with me?" She asked me and she started grabbing at my shirt. She was crying, I didn't know what to say. I'm going to miss her a lot, but I have to go. It's all part of my plan, and if I don't finish school then how is that supposed to work out? I promised her, "Jessie, I will always be here to protect you." And then I had to go, I hugged her good bye, kissed my mom and then waved good bye to my father. Now I'm here. I'm a bit scared of whats going to happen, but I'm sure it will be fine. After I do what I have to do things for Jessie and me are going to be a lot better. I promise that much. I wont let anything happen to her. I need to go, I will write later!! Mark.

I just got a new diary since I'm going away to Hogwarts. I'm so happy, this is going to be so awesome. I'm going to miss my little sister really baddly though. I'm 11 now and she is 6. Her names Jessica but I call her Jessie. She is the sweetest, and I love her so much. I'm a bit scared though, I don't know what house I'm going to be in. Mom and Dad say that I will be in Slytherin and make them proud, I dunno. I guess that be cool, but I want the sorting hat to put me somewhere with people that I will get along with. Mom and Dad are really proud of me for getting in. I told Jessie that I would teach her spells and buy her a wand while I am there. Mom and Dad can get angry if they find out, but she is having problems with kids at school so I have to help her out. Besides that what kind of brother would I be if I didn't? I need to go, I have to say good bye to Jessie and my parents. I will write back later, Mark.